Today I just need to write.  It's jumbled and I've been crying as I write.  I feel so sad, so overwhelmed. I don't know where to turn.

Today we had parent/teacher interviews.

I thought you were going along really well.  Your reading last year soared and although you started behind the average level you ended up right on .... even a bit above.  Your reading is still going strong....but something else is wrong.  Something is missing between your mind and your mouth.  Words are not in sequence.  Sentences don't make sense.  Some do....but many don't.

Your maths is behind and you can't seem to retell stories very well.  Very quickly you forget what you have just learned.

At home you seem to do well.  Jumbled sentences yes, but other than that I don't notice a lot.

I was shocked.  A feel so sad that this is something else you have to deal with.  Your teeth will need major work, your leg is going to need surgery and now you have learning difficulties.  Honey God must have something awesome planned for you.  You are, in so many ways, still so unaware.  That is a huge blessing.....you love life and you enjoy life and you are encouraged enough to be confident.  I pray it stays that way for as long as is possible.  But with awareness will come the ability to understand and, hopefully, to move forward....but there will also be battles within yourself.  I know.  I'm old enough to know some of what lay ahead.

The teachers are saying it is something you will have to deal with for the rest of your life.  You will learn 'strategies'.  I don't want that for you.  I want you to soar....I guess that's how every parent feels.  Well most.

I also don't want to 'box' you and I don't want others to either.  That could have been done over your reading...and look at you now.

Oh sweetheart.  My heart hurts so much for you when you aren't even aware.....