Friday, July 14, 2006

How am I feeling?

These are such interesting times for me. We have so much happening it's almost beyond my ability to cope. If I thought too deeply about what's going on I think I'd collapse. Our home has sold and we are moving out in 3 weeks. We have been offered a 3 bedroom home in Mt. Beauty rent free while we build - which is an incredible blessing. We move on the 4th August and then come back to Melbourne on Monday 7th and (thank God!) we leave for 8 nights on the Sunshine Coast - which couldn't be better timed. We return on Thursday 17th August and then on Monday 21st, Graham will officially move up to Mt. Beauty and I'll move in with my brother Mark, his wife Bern and my 2 beautiful nieces Bec (3.5) and Lizzie (1). There I'll stay until China (whilst we try and build a home in Mt. Beauty!). Gosh! Adopting - building a home - moving - living apart........I can't believe it's all happening - and SO fast. I feel extremely overwhelmed - but I know it will be OK - it will all happen. I just don't know how at this stage. Work is also a puzzle for me - I love working at the Church and they are being so incredible loving and gracious. I know it's hard on them, trying to plan around my uncertainties - they are an awesome group of people to work with. I am continually fighting feelings of disconnectedness and I guess uselessness. I'll just fill in the spots wherever I'm needed and pray that I'm useful.
I've already started packing and the room that I lovingly painted and decorated has now been dismantled :( It's hard to believe Ebony will never sleep in there!
On the adoption front - I'm just waiting for the next lot of allocations to come through, which should be in the next 10 days. That will tell us ALOT about what will happen from here. I'll certainly post when I hear the next lot of news!

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi Jen,
Yes I am reading and keeping a eye on your travels! I know that our little one is a long way off! Cause we've only started SW visits. But when our little one comes home and when we are up your way (as my family live up that way) we will make the effort to see you you and G and Ebony!

I am so exicted and anxious for you with all the stuff your doing at the moment. At least you know how to keep yourself more than busy.

Jacinta

Amy said...

Hello from Canada.All the best on this journey to come. We are LID Aug 16th. Getting closer everyday. Amy

helena said...

hey jen,
sending some love to you from chicago.....you are often in my thoughts......you are an amazing woman and i can't wait to finally see God's plan unfold for your life with the arrival of precious little ebony.....she is already loved by us all......hang in there with the waiting....
love helena.

Anonymous said...

Welcome to the North East Jem & Graham. It is so wonderful to have you up in our part of the world, where our little darling girls will grow up together.
Much love
Mandy your "batch buddy"
XX

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