A novel idea - a post about me.
Today, for the first time in 2 years, 4 months and 27 days I went for a walk totally and completely on my own.
I dropped a happy little girl at Kinder and then walked.
Wow.
How different it felt.
It brought up a lot of different emotions really.
Who am I these days when I'm not Ebony's Mummy? I don't know that I really know the answer to that. I don't really want to. I'm happy to be who I am when I'm with her. Probably more happy than I am when I'm not with her. Probably not a good thing, but I'll work on that progressively as she settles into Kinder and then School I guess. Probably also something many, many Mum's go through. Just, like so many things, it's never discussed.
I enjoyed it - it was fun. I got to think about different things than what she is wanting at that moment. But I missed her. I missed her sweet little smile, her warm little hand in mine. Her sunshine - her joy - her happiness.
Hmmmmm. Why did I write this - I don't know. But I'm glad I did.
4 comments:
Just a mom speaking from her heart! Sweet post, Jen!
Just a mom speaking from her heart. Sweet post, Jen.
Ahh... your baby is growing up...
Hi Jen - great to read this.
As much as we moms love and enjoy being with our kids - it is neccesery as well for us to have a time on our own.
It was very hard for me to leave Elísabet for a weekend with my girlfriends - last year - but it did us both a lot of good to have a quality time with other people (she with her father).
I think it´s good to have this thinking as you did in this writing. We must not forget who we are ;) and we have to think about our selves, even if we are the best and greatest moms :)
I´ve been thinking about you. Love, Kitta :)
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